31 October

Final release time. I've already shot 3 loads today and I'm ready to choke out a fourth. Why so much wanking? Well, I want my balls empty because after today, no more cumming until 1st December. Just the thought of that is making my cock throb.

I love edging and cum-denial - that feeling of being aroused and frustrated, lost in that endless moment of pleasure before release. It's pretty awesome. But I'm not always that great at holding back - I'll cum most days, sometimes 2-3 times per day. And when I am trying to edge over a series of days, I'll not last more than 3-4 days. The longest I've ever lasted is 8 days (and that was such sweet torture!)

But I'm now on the precipice of a whole month of abstinence and I'm getting a little nervous - excited, obviously, but with a lot of trepidation thrown in. I live by myself and I work from home, so it's easy to get tempted and distracted by my cock's calls for attention. And it's not like I plan to leave myself alone for the month - I'll be edging, watching porn, and probably doing whatever other challenges you send me to do. I'm going to be horned up, desperate, and hopefully loving every fucking second of being turned on without release.

I don't know what course I'll chart through the month - maybe I'll share with you how close I've come to shooting a load and how it felt to pull back, maybe I'll share a pic of a hot guy and what I'd like to do to him, or maybe I'll share a fantasy that played in my head as I was lying in bed stroking myself without release. Or maybe I'll be sharing my failures - and the accompanying pictures of myself as a forfeit.

Stick around if you, like me, want to find out what happens next month. But right now I need to pump out one last load.