Day Eight

Who thought I'd make it this far? Be honest... And if we're being honest, I'm not entirely sure I believed I would, either.

Eight days is as long as I have ever managed to last without shooting and here we are today. And even though my balls ache and it takes almost nothing to get my cock hard, I think I'm going to make it to day nine. And I'm still hopeful that I'll make it to day thirty.

But has it been hard enough? Should I make this challenge harder? I'm edging, watching porn, and finding pictures to use on this blog. But is there more I could do to make me hornier, to make it harder to abstain, and to make me want to cum even more? In other words, am I holding back?

And so I thought about a collaborator - someone to get me worked up and keep going after I would have stopped edging myself. Someone who would tell me when to edge, for how long, etc. Possibly even someone to try to make me cum while I tried not to (see Sunday's post). But relying on someone else is probably not going to work and could be risky, so then I thought I might write a simple metronome app - something that would set the pace and duration for each of my sessions but with random elements built in so that even I don't know for how long it's going to make me edge or at what speed. Maybe I could use some of the time I have been edging to write that app instead - it might give my cock a bit of a break for a few days and make the second half of this challenge even harder!